Looking for musicians who share my vision: emotional freedom through freeform sonic exploration
This is an advertisement and an explanation of who I am and the weight thats build building in my heart as the years have passed. My favourite bands are phish and grateful dead, although I love miles davis, pat martino, alex g, beatles, bob dylan, mf doom, frank zappa, wilco, daft punk, king crimson, talking heads, deafheaven, big theif, car seat headrest, black midi, velvet underground, marvin gaye, modest mouse, captain beefheart, springsteen, pavement, the beach boys, steeley dan and it goes on. If you do not like the first two though, chances are our lack of an ultimate shared vision is going to cause tension. The dead have opened a door to total exploration that is reminiscent in jazz but has its roots in folk, bluegrass, blues, and importantly rock, the style that is most embedded in my DNA. I respect the fuck out of the jazz bros out there and I love going to shows and listenting to records, but the space I am taken to in the veneta PITB or Tahoe Tweezer or 93 NYE hood I cannot find anywhere else. I am not trying to undermine other art or the other jam bands out there (i love perpetual groove and widespread panic and ive come across random groups on the web that are sick (goose looks promising), but I have not been taken off my feet literally like I have with the two clear GOATS of the genre. I remember listenting to the halloween 94 reba and falling off my chair when try pushed the solo to its height, I remember walking home from the bar only mildy intoxicated listening to the 93 hood and feeling like I was going to pass out and falling backwards onto a lampost as trey took us to there, I remember standing still wide mouthed for 15 mins straight during 11.18.72 playing in the band as I was not able to even put concious thought as to what the fuck was going on but I again felt like I was gonna pass out. This is heaven on earth, it is my new religion and my new spirit and it is preaching to me and I have to hear it. I cannot turn away any longer. As I listen day after day and play guitar day after day and go to jam sessions with people who don’t feel the otherworldly bliss that I perceive in these moments I feel more and more like I am observing the person I wish I was from afar like watching a legend on twitch. I have a longing for being in the midst of this spontaneously evolved otherworldly bliss and letting out a scream (not into the mic of course its gonna be off key) that eases this existential tension.
This sounds like a mentally ill rant but I assure you I am quite happy and healthy. I am a philosophy student who gets A’s and a professional poker player who yields good results, I workout daily, I eat healthy, I meditate daily, I am not telling you this to brag but to indicate that I am not one of the mentally ill musicians who is delusional, whos ego cannot take the criticism that is necessary to grow the art in its mature direction, or is cripped by drug addiction. I have been feeling this way for a few years now so its not just some mania, the tension has built, though, and I am turning 26 in a few months and I can feel my life slipping away from me. I live in Ottawa, Canada but am financially independent and can work anywhere and have no lease, rent, girlfriend and can drop out of school at any moment (just doing it for the cognitive enrichment, well aware a bachelors in philosophy is not gonna get me a career). This vision I have is my ultimate priority. I don’t care where you live if you share this vision I will drive to you and sleep on floors until I'm settled. I will leave my country. Right now I’m only practicing around an hour a day but if I find one(s) I can artistically tango with in this direction I will dedicate everything I have to the actualization of our art. I will give up everything that resembles a vice. I don’t like weed or alcohol anymore because I feel it is holding back my maximal potential from coming into fruition. I don’t want a girlfriend because I am scared that she might become a priority that restrains me from living for the art.
Contact:
https://www.instagram.com/michael.braden.yolo/
michaelbraden97@hotmail.com
